Colour my life

♥ Thursday, December 31, 2009 ♥

Because you're beautiful, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Suede - Beautiful ones

High on diesel and gasoline, psycho for drum machine
shaking their bits to the hits,
Drag acts, drug acts, suicides, in your dad's suits you hide
staining his name again,
Cracked up, stacked up, 22, psycho for sex and glue
lost it to Bostik, yeah,
Shaved heads, rave heads, on the pill, got too much time to kill
get into bands and gangs,

Oh, here they come, the beautiful ones, the beautiful ones

loved up, Doved up, hung around, stoned in a lonely town
shaking their meat to the beat,
High on diesel and gasoline, psycho for drum machine
shaking their bits to the hits,

Oh, here they come, the beautiful ones, the beautiful ones,

You don't think about it,
You don't do without it,
because you're beautiful,
And if your baby's going crazy
that's how you made me,

la, la, la, la...

There are times where you hear a song and you just know its the one you're gonna put on repeat the whole day - for no particular reason, it just comes to you. (That electric guitar intro, especially)

It was Streetlights by Making April & Norah Jones yesterday, and that's how I ended up referring to that picture of the blue model streetlights (sadly, it wasn't a good attempt and I'm going to try drawing a new one soon if time permits)

Peace out, I'm staring at a perfume advertisement and it reminds me of the lines "A singer in a smoky room, A smell of wine and cheap perfume" from Journey's Don't stop believing.

Please don't remind me how wonderful YSL's Parisienne smells. I don't wear perfume, but I'm so in love with that scent, somehow. Happen to come across it. (wouldn't mind a bottle of it!)

Crossing my fingers and hoping that sketch will work out just fine. If it is, I might just put it up somewhere :)

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Family guy - Music and lyrics by stewie griffin

Family guy - songs named after a girl

HAHA. Stewie makes me laugh sometimes, like today.

♥ Wednesday, December 30, 2009 ♥

(dug my blogs today and this picture (along with the lyrics to sleep) reminded me of how I was feeling that particular day. Picture's from Frankie Mag website)

Changed my msn nick to Emma and put EMMAANNAEMMA! ANNAEMMAANNA! (: at the pm just like Anna 'cause I was in a quiet and sane mood unlike usual. & cause capital letters ain't my thing today. Can't you see I'm listening to norah jones!

It looks so different especially since I've had it for so long. Ash and Anna are coming back from their camp tomorrow, hello you guys!

Just a short update about my life, Steph and I went back to practice on our instruments yesterday (and dig for scores). Macs hotcakes over a 2 hour chat too (: I am warabe uta fantasy obsessed.

Jeremy joined us later on and he taught me abit of the drums while I helped transpose My heart will go on/canon in D/zhu ti qu for his trumpet and played some tunes on the piano. Actually, that felt great cause I haven't been playing random on-the-spot compositions on the piano. Haven't tried writing songs though.

Dinner and more chatting at Kovan's KFC, those two planned a timetable with me too heh. Geography didn't go to well.

On bus 81 home, there was an old man who kept staring right INTO my face. I smiled at him and he told me I looked alot like his granddaughter, and that she's hardworking just like me. (wow I bet I look studious) Kept repeating the fact that its important to study and work hard and I've gotta keep it up. When he first asked me where I stayed at first, I was skeptical, being afraid that he was a stalker but it was okay after awhile.

Ohyes, back to my painting. Norah Jones, Jazz and streetlights and through the trees puts me in the mood for painting :D

Peixuan is back from thailand!! welcome back xuanee!! (heh this is our very overused msn dp but I still love it alot!!)

Nic called to say she received the xmas card! Can't wait for our random outing next friday!! We've been talking about it for so long!

Can't believe its the end of the year already.

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been somewhere else :)

be back really soon.

♥ Tuesday, December 29, 2009 ♥

You know, sometimes, things just go all of a sudden in one night.

Like, I'm finally seeing something. I don't neeed any of those. So all I do now is to stay silent and do the minimum that pleases, while putting my utmost effort to others.

Lily Allen - The Fear

here's the link to the video if you're interested
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kL6DlOQIwaY&feature=related
Not as if you haven't seen it, but its worth listening.

Sorry for not being able to embed the original music video up here, its been disabled. There's just this special quality of this song that makes you want to hold on to it. .. or not, I mean it just makes so much sense all of a sudden. Think I've been so caught up at times I forget about how little these materialistic things count.

I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don't care about clever I don't care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them

And I'll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
'Cuz everyone knows that's how you get famous
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track, yeah I'm on to a winner

I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
And when do you think it will all become clear?
'Cuz I'm being taken over by the Fear

Life's about film stars and less about mothers
It's all about fast cars and cussing each other
But it doesn't matter cause I'm packing plastic
And that's what makes my life so fucking fantastic

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
And its not my fault it's how I'm programmed to function
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track, yeah we're on to a winner

I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
And when do you think it will all become clear?
'Cuz I'm being taken over by the Fear

Forget about guns and forget ammunition
'Cuz I'm killing them all on my own little mission
Now I'm not a saint but I'm not a sinner
Now everything is cool as long as I'm getting thinner

I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
And when do you think it will all become clear?
'Cuz I'm being taken over by the Fear

Feels like a night of inspiration.

Not wearing my heart on my sleeves tonight.

♥ Monday, December 28, 2009 ♥

I haven't been initiating talks with some people just because I thought they'd always be there. Not like I ever did the initiating, but perhaps I seem much too far from reach for them already so nobody ends up initiating.

Make an effort.

I remember this. and I don't remember when was the last time I wrote you something. Not that its anything I should be proud of at all. There's nothing else to be said until I actually write whatever I want to. Sigh.

On a happier note, we had fun yesterday.

(If I had the time now I would write all about it cause it was really fun with our whole family and yahui. Not now, gotta bathe soon but hey we all enjoyed ourselves :D)

Yahui, these are for you! Pity the ones with the games and marbles didn't turn out too nice :(

we drank some and tasted almost all of those. & I meant just little sips for some so they're not enough to get drunk, of course. I think there were more chinese wine in the cupboard but we were lazy to take those out.

from Christmas eve:

Love you kaikai & Riane!

Took us forever to find Riane's place that morning with the big giraffe and three macdonald's breakfast meals PLUS it was raining AND we actually forgot her block number.

Christmas lunch with the SRGCE Japan peeps:

(and it wasn't a 5 star hotel, but the food was quite good)

that's our table, there were two other tables and Mr Tan treated us all! :O (the bill amounts to 200)

Off to bathe and do my work.

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The procrastinator hasn't finished her posts about christmas, and spent her time watching movies, selecting photos and clicking away instead. About to start on work soon too.

Allow me to introduce to you JIM STURGESS. (Jude from Across the Universe)

Absolutely charming isn't he?!

♥ Sunday, December 27, 2009 ♥

Watching Across the Universe now, taking a break before inserting disc 2. Loving all the songs in there! A film for fans of The Beatles, as it incorporated like, 33 of their songs in it. I don't have much of their songs YET but I'm already starting to sing along to them!

Saw the disc at the store yesterday and decided get it for I'm far too lazy to search for it online (didn't work on the sites I have).

Got Schindler's list (heard its real good) too! Can't wait to watch In America again, and the few on my "must watch" list of course. I watched In America on Christmas last year (and ended up writing a whole chunk about it if you did read), a pity I didn't do the same this year :( Soon, soon!

As usual, there are a few songs I really love so here you go:

Across the Universe - (prudence) I want to hold your hand

Love this rendition alot, go prudence! :D

Across the Universe - Dear Prudence

The sun is up, the sky is blue
It's beautiful and so are you

I found it pretty funny that I was able to guess the next line "and so are you" right after they sang "its beautiful". Its like the influence of too many "roses are red, violets are blue" kind of poems haha!

Across the universe - (Lucy, Jude, Max, Sadie, Prudence, and Jojo) because

Nice harmony.

Its cool how the characters are named after the songs. Like Lucy in the sky with the diamonds, Dear prudence and Hey Jude. Must I add the main characters are very goodlooking too :} More of Jude, Lucy and Prudence!

Back to the movie for me, the above songs are real good even though they're covers (from the film).

& yeah, I'll still talk about yesterday and the day before!

♥ Saturday, December 26, 2009 ♥

Its beginning to look alot like christmas

Christmas can be summed up in 5 words:

ramen, christmas mass, airport, dinner, games

Typed a post with pictures but it isn't complete and I've gotta sleep soon so.. shall combine it with tomorrow's post! Been a great day though :) Happy boxing day to all!

Great day indeed :D

♥ Friday, December 25, 2009 ♥

Bach - Air on G string

Perhaps the only song that's able to calm me down all the time. (okay, debussy I've got loads of classical favourites but this one's really the best. Its the tune I hum in my head whenever I'm neverous, the sound of an orchestra brings you to some other place.

I know most people won't actually click on "PLAY", I think I treat it more like a record of what kind of stuff I listen to at different periods.

Gosh I love this song, I know I'm not the only one who does :D

GOING FOR RAMEN LUNCH WITH JAPAN SRGCE PEEPS SOON! Its supposed to be THE best ramen in singapore according to uncle Roy. Shall see for myself later, but its gonna be quite wallet-unfriendly since its a five star hotel. Ohwell,

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

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Cute boy on Ukulele! - While my guitar gently weeps

You guys might have seen this before, he's just so cute isn't it! Check him out at 1:00 onwards, hilarious! Feel like hugging him right now!!

Cute boy on Ukulele - I'm yours

SO CUTE! but my yukata kodomo is still cuter (L). Alright I'll stop whining about the sd card which was spoilt since we came back :(

♥ Thursday, December 24, 2009 ♥

Sometimes you gotta learn to stop hoping to not get hurt or disappointed. & maybe I've already decided to stop waiting. Nah.

I need to do something like postsecrets.com.
There are a 1000 things I want to write down right now.

If there's one thing you should know, I don't mind telling people secrets. It makes me feel so much better, I don't even need advice, all I need is somebody to tell my secrets to and I'm already feeling a little better. Alot better now, actually. haha.

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Boston pops - sleigh ride (live)

Timeless piece! You gotta listen to it!

Not in much of a christmas-y mood now but I thought you guys would love this. At least I got really high over it yesterday. Correction its kinda making me a little happier already. Not much, but still.

What's christmas without the friends and family and relatives and turkies and candy canes and fireplace and snow and sleighs and puddings and gingerbread men?

On another note, striking things off lists are so fun :D

{EDIT} HOHOHO THIS SONG BRINGS MIRACLES CHRISTMAS EVE AT HOME MIGHT NOT BE THAT AFTERALL A SONG IS ALL YOU NEED HOHOHO {/EDIT}

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"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own"

"Turn my eyes away from worthless things, preserve my life according to your word"

I got some cards. (in the colours of the quotes)

I feel like reading the bible all of a sudden.
~~I feel like playing the piano~~ DONE!
I feel like drawing.
I feel like completing my assignments now.

and I shall do all those by today

I feel sleepy because I slept at 5 and woke up at 8.

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Penned down some thoughts but decided to put them down, heh.

Don't want to make them seem like empty promises until I get some work done, so yeah.

Christmas doesn't even feel like christmas at all.

Nobody to share it with, anyway. Christmas eve's gonna be a bore.

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To my dearest Kaiying

I hope you'll read this before you fly off to Australia! Have a safe trip there and back, & enjoy your new year over there too (though that'll mean we wouldn't be celebrating together D: ) I'm proud and honoured to be last person you'll be seeing before you fly off eh! We gotta meet up again to chat after your return k, it felt so short just now (and also to make up for all the time we've "lost" this year). & hopefully I'd be a better study partner next year so we can actually really study together (instead of you asking me to concentrate and planning timetables for me).

Thanks for the keychain too! So don't worry I'll think of you everyday in Singapore everytime I sms or use the phone hahah :D Since I probably won't be able to talk to you until next year, here's wishing you MERRY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY NEW YEAR in advance! Lets work through the next year together! I LOVE YOU ALOT, KAIKAI!

Love,
Emma

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Philharmonic Youth Winds: Classiques! Extreme

was a great and enjoyable concert :D

Highlights of the day were Extreme Make-over by Johan De Meij and Third Symphony by James Barnes! I especially liked the third movement from the third symphony and yes, the whole of extreme make-over. Some special effects like blowing across the bottles (with pitches!) and percussion ones were quite interesting :D

I salute all the players from philyouth winds, must be extremely tiring to play those pieces!

Anyway, it was supposed to be a band outing thing but it ended up to be only Alif, Nathanael who went cause the rest were either not free or didn't reply. LOL. We had dinner at Raffles city food court and guess what, Nathanael and I bought Japanese food. HAHAH. Must be missing Japan far too much!

So we missed the first piece (but got to watch it on the screen outside the concert hall, anyway). The rest of the concert was truly enjoyable (as I have mentioned earlier), and towards the end, there were balloons falling from the ceiling when a net was realeased!

While the audiences were busy throwing ballons all around, philyouthwinds played Sleigh ride and.. (omg the other song title suddenly slipped my mind). The conductor Mr Adrian Chiang was being really cute by cueing us in to do the clapping. hahaha.

While we waited for Yihao so we could pay up for the tickets (yeah my bandfest sectionmate who performed tonight, great job!), I picked up a few ballons and started getting high by singing and all. Can't blame me, I was really happy then. I EVEN GOT TO BRING IT HOME!

No... wait the balloon didn't survive long enough to see my home :(

It got blew away by the wind while I was busy getting high while walking back to the mrt and landed on the shrubs and then the ground. When I tried to pick it up it burst instantly which left me in a state of shock (while the other two started laughing like crazy)

R.I.P NATALIE!
(I named it after the third movement of third symphony)

Home after that.

Its weird how I always regret not joining band right from the start but when I go home and listen to the choir pieces I'll fall in love all over again and start to get really confused. Its pretty sad that I just picked up an instrument at this age, but my choir life was pretty great too, so.. no regrets. Its never too old to learn so I gotta MAKE MORE TIME FOR IT!

Just listened to kometsuki madara!

♥ Wednesday, December 23, 2009 ♥

If I were to have any new year resolutions, one of them must read "reply to your sms-es and messages immediately and don't procrastinate!"

Sorry if I've pissed anybody off by not replying! :(

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Please, just burn up and die.

& regarding yesterday's post, it wasn't that great a night (morning, rather) at all. Frustrations, Misunderstandings, feeling hurt, what not. My eyes are still swollen, I hate it when I wake up with swollen eyes.

Guess I'll get back to my stuff before I go out again tonight.

I hope the concert would be a great one.

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what is this
suspense.

Its 4:08am now and I'm not asleep.
I wasn't studying.

I noticed a few things about myself:
(learnt from a not-so-great night)

I really dislike/am afraid of taking the intiative
(but haven't asked myself why)

I'd rather sit and wait all day and leave, disappointed, than to be the one to start the ball rolling. It doesn't matter whether I actually really want something or not, or whether its a duty, or a responsibility.

Actually, its not "I'd rather". I'd love to take the initiative but I just don't dare to, or don't know how to. There are exceptions but this it it in general terms. Doesn't matter whether I'm at school or at home. The latter's more about responsibilities.

I also noticed that in a conversation, I can be EXTREMELY quiet if the person does not speak first, but once he/she does, I'll start talking alot. Is that strange or normal behaviour?

I'm very afraid of drifting away from my friends
and I believe time can bridge gaps or wash away ties.

I like people to tell me the truth and what they truly feel,
to hurt me at that moment because of that but at least that's better than sugar coating stuff which won't solve the root of the problem. The truth hurts, but not for long.

I think too much sometimes,
and might even get paranoid from a small gesture or a short phrase.

Its 4:30 am, I'm tired.
Goodnight.

Hanging by a thread